Tuesday, June 13, 2017

Sunday at the flower farm...

We went Sunday driving with Grandpa to this gorgeous flower farm! It felt like a fairy tale! Flowers everywhere, storm clouds, vineyards surrounding us. We got caught in a rain/hail storm at the end and had to run for cover... Just gorgeous...

I'm so thankful for this family of mine!

Flowers are my love language so this was  such a sweet little trip!



Thursday, May 25, 2017

...the lifter of my head...

My heart was stirring for years... things that I knew the Lord gave me desires for and yet I couldn't see how in the world they would come to pass. Dreams that only my journal saw but that are now real life. 
I started all this with nothing. I was off social media, I had no friend circle to run to, I had just come out of the hardest season that we had ever walked through as a family, and yet I knew, without any doubts, that THIS was what the Lord was calling me to. Confirmation after confirmation. So much prayer and scripture and journaling and stirring in my heart led me here. When I first started I would clean out nasty molded trailers with my husband to pay for my oils because I saw the end game of this being, not only an investment in our future health but also in our future everything. I saw what the opportunity was, sitting in front of me. I had to get over my fears and unknowns and just go for it. Not the, "I'll try" or "I'll do my best" but "I'll do whatever it takes" because I saw it! I knew this was what I was supposed to do. And man, God has blown my mind. 
There's power in a calling. There's power in a team. There's power in women coming together to support each other, cheer each other on, pray for each other, encourage each other, believe in each other. 
This journey is life changing. It doesn't just happen though. You have to work for it. But the rewards are far beyond what anything else I've ever experienced can accomplish. The work that the Lord has done in my heart, in my team's hearts, it's unmatched by anything I've ever seen. The Lord is at work in all of this, I know for certain. I'm truly grateful to be part of all this beauty and favor. 

If your heart is stirring in this, run in faith towards it. Don't wait and allow fears and worries to creep in. Remember that quote I shared the other day?... "It's not about who you've been in the past, because every single attack on your life up until now, it's about who you might be in the future...The enemy is always attacking who you might be. He really doesn't care about who you've been. So you need to get that mindset, that if you have gone through Hell, that there is something inside of you that he's afraid of." (Lisa Bevere) We had walked through our own hell, but God, in His great grace, walked us out and has showered us with blessing upon blessing. Trust His calling. Trust His voice. And run with obedience, believing that NOTHING is impossible with Jesus! His blessing and favor never runs out... never. 
Years of walking in insecurity, shame, fears and brokenness with my head down, Jesus became the lifter of my head. 
"But you, O LORD, are a shield around me; you are my glory, 
the one who holds my head high." 
Psalm 3:3

These photos are like postcards of the day that seemed impossible to me... But with God all things are possible. My hubby bought me flowers and told me to hop in the car so he could take pictures to remember the day....

 I wrote this the day after...
So yesterday.... I don't fully have words to describe it all yet and I don't know that I never will. But this I know for sure... that if the Lord is fighting for you, you have nothing to fear. If the Lord is leading you, nothing is impossible. If the Lord is calling you, run after whatever He tells you to do. Trust Him. Believe in His Word. Speak out His promises. Don't miss the blessings that He wants to shower over you because of your own fear of the unknown... because HE knows what's ahead and that's really all that matters. He came to give us life abundantly and I'm seeing that with my own eyes. I say all the time that I'm a recovering pessimist because honestly, those pessimistic thoughts were just my fears running wild on my future and I'm choosing to step into obedience and to stop allowing my negative thinking to have any more control over my life. We are called to rejoice always, not assume the worst. So I'm choosing to honor the Lord and rejoice. To look with expectancy at the future. At church yesterday morning I sang those beautiful words that speak of the Lord being a good good Father and that I am loved by Him. I know those words to be true. He has radically changed my life. He's made beauty from ashes. He's brought freedom to bondage. He's brought hope when I had lost it. He's redeeming and restoring and overflowing our cup with blessings that I never knew could be mine. "So if the Son sets you free, you are truly free." {John 8:36} 
And this blessing that I speak of, this freedom that I see is not just for me. It's for all His children. I'm watching it pour out over my best friends and their families. I'm seeing women fight for freedom and run towards it. I'm seeing the hand of God actively at work in the lives of those around me. God is a BIG GOD and is fully ABLE to bless all His children. He doesn't play favorites. He freely gives to all those that have put their faith, hope and trust in Him. 

"I would have lost heart, unless I had believed

That I would see the goodness of the Lord
In the land of the living.

Wait on the Lord;

Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the Lord!"

{Psalm 27:13-14}

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Saturday, May 20, 2017

Women Living for the Most

My sweet sweet friend Kasey interviewed me over on her blog. She's doing a series called "Women Living For The Most". She asked me questions on why that's important, how I'm accomplishing it, things that help me, advice to my younger self and more. And go check out @obrienoutpost on Instagram and her beautiful family as well! She's so inspirational and loving and sweet as pie! Thank you again, Kasey!! 😘😘
Click the link to read the interview! http://www.obrienoutpost.com/women-living-for-the-most-featuring-abigail-aviva/

Saturday, May 13, 2017

Mother's Day Weekend 2017

Happy Mother's Day!!
This was something I wrote last Mother's Day but I wanted to share it here again:
...a mother's heart is a reflection of God's heart, His selfless character and His unconditional love. Becoming a mother changed everything for me. My whole world turned from all about me to all about them the moment I laid eyes on their faces. Such a beautiful transformation of taking someone so selfish and making them more like Jesus on this journey of motherhood. As much as I feel I fail all the time, today I felt the love of Jesus in such a huge way that washed over me and made me see motherhood as something worthy of celebrating because it's connected with the heart of God. 
Mothers bring beauty 
and so much more.

All of which are pieces of God worthy to be celebrated...

Here's some mama quotes that I love...

The impression that a praying Mother leaves upon her children is life-long.
- Dwight L. Moody

I remember my mother's prayers and they have always followed me. 

They have clung to me all my life. 

Abraham Lincoln

All that I am, or hope to be, I owe to my angel mother. 
Abraham Lincoln

My nickname is "Mom" but my full name is 
"Mom Mom Mom Mom Mom Mom"
{unknown but definitely by a mama}

Motherhood is such an incredible gift and honor. I've learned so much from my own mama... she's selfless, strong, giving, sacrificial, loves well and forgives deeply. She showed me how to love a husband, no matter what you face. She has taken me and my whole big family into her home so graciously and helped us in our darkest days. My children adore her and forever I'm so grateful that she risked her life to have me... only a mama would do something like that. 

" She made broken look beautiful & strong look invincible. She walked with the universe on her shoulders and made it look like a pair of wings."

Happy Mother's Day!!!


Wednesday, April 19, 2017

Easter 2017

He wanted to take a "littering" photo! haha! Don't worry, we picked it up again! 

This Easter weekend was so sweet! It was a weekend full of singing and family and celebrating the greatest moment in all of history of Jesus conquering sin and death and making a way for us to spend forever with Him. I'm forever grateful to Jesus for what Easter represents. 
I hope you all had a blessed weekend as well!

Tuesday, March 7, 2017

In memory of my father… 20 years later...

I woke up the other morning and felt like the Lord put this idea in my mind to go back to where my Dad lived and died and remember him and to share that in a video. I had no idea how to pull it off but thankfully I'm married to a man that can figure out anything and he made it all come together… (thanks, baby)
So here's my story of my Dad…

Sunday, February 26, 2017

Sunday morning thoughts...

Two things that were on my heart this morning that I wanted to share, even if it's only for me to look back on someday to remind myself…

The first thing is this… Is God really my top priority? Most christians would quickly say, when asked or when writing their social media profile, that it's God first, then husband, then children, then everything else, whether it's their job or hobbies or ministries or friends or whatever. Majority of the time, the list looks the same: God, Marriage, Children, Everything else.
However, if you really really take an honest look at your lived-out priorities, often times they show up a bit differently. It's easy to say that God is my number one priority but to actually live it out is a totally different thing. And I was really convicted of that. I had to ask myself, "Is God really my very first priority? And if so, in what way?" It was sobering because, as much as I want Him to be, what really comes first is what is the loudest in my life, or at least what I let become the loudest… and God doesn't scream at me and wave His arms to get my attention. He is that still small voice. Not the earthquake or the storm or the tornado or the emergency… He's that quiet and gentle and peaceful place that I too easily can put aside until "later" when I have a minute… which can easily end up being me sitting down but still fully distracted and not just being still before the God that made me. It kind of blows my mind how caught up in life I can allow myself to get, and lose sight of the One who gave me that life. Not that I forget my faith or stop loving Jesus, but that I forget that He is my first love… What I do is far more important than what I say, and more than just saying that Jesus is my all in all, I need to live out that truth daily. I desperately want the Lord's blessing and favor and guidance and wisdom in all of my life, but can end up going to Him in distraction and busyness of mind instead of arms out wide, fully at His feet, recognizing that He is all powerful and all knowing and wants all of me to trust all of Him, fully surrendered to His plan (not my plan, because I tend to make plans for God ;0). 

Second thought of the day…
As I was praying this morning, I felt the Lord remind me of this:
God's hand is big enough to bless all of His children.
It can be so easy to look around at others and grow jealous or believe lies that you aren't enough or aren't as loved as someone next to you because God's hand seems to be blessing them more than you. But that's not at all true. The Lord is a GOOD FATHER who blesses His children abundantly. He owns "the cattle on a thousand hills" and He never runs out of resources or abilities or creativity! He has an endless supply and delights to bless His children…. BUT, just like with our own children, it's not always in the same way or in the same timing. I have four children and in different seasons and different occasions, they can respond differently when we give them gifts. Like on one kiddo's birthday, another kid can recognize the greatness of the gift while another can see the same gift and wonder why they didn't get one too or run off in and tantrum crying that they didn't get that same gift. It can even happen on Christmas morning when they ALL are getting gifts but they look to another sibling and don't see the gift THEY were given… Does that sound familiar? I'm totally guilty of that same thinking, even as an adult! I can choose to see those that are blessed around me, and rejoice with them, or I can selfishly look at myself and wonder why I'm not receiving the same. So lame but if I'm being honest, I can think that way if I'm not guarding my thoughts. Blarg. It's funny because I can see it in my own children so clearly but am blind to my own junk too often. You can love your own children SO much and yet one child responds to your giving with so much joy and gratitude while another sees it as not enough or wants it in a different way or feels entitled to it. And entitlement doesn't look good on anyone. If my child throws a fit, my blessing takes a pause because discipline takes the top priority. The blessing will come but it may take longer for them to receive it because the attitude needs to shift first. My Heavenly Father cares more about my heart and attitude than if I'm getting all the things on my wish list, just like I do with my own children. No matter how old I get, forever I am a child of God and sometimes my 'tude needs to be adjusted before I can fully receive all that He has for me. 
But again, the truth is that God's hand is big enough to bless all of His children.

And that's then end of random Sunday morning thoughts. 
wonk wonk.