Friday, October 6, 2017

15 years

15 years ago I said I'd love you forever. If I could have been given a glimpse into our future and could have seen the children we would be given, their faces, their hearts, their voices, the way they love Jesus, the way they sing in the car or dance in the living room.... the way they laugh at our goofy parent jokes or the way their breath would feel on my face as they wrap their little hands around my cheeks and tell me they love me.... if I could have seen the man that you would become, the father that you would be to our children, the friend that you would be through the hardest times and the best times... if I could have seen the beauty from ashes that the Lord was going to do in our lives... I wouldn't have know how to contain myself on that day we said "I do" all those years ago. I was meant to love you. And I'd marry you a million times over again. You are my truest friend and the man that has held my heart since I was 12. 
I love you forever ❤️ Happy fifteen, baby! 

From Tony:
"15 years into this marriage and the thing I've noticed the most about you is that not only has the joy of the Lord truly become your strength but the strength of the Lord has come to hold your joy in place like an anchor in a storm. I’ve loved seeing your joy spill over into the lives of our children and change the atmosphere in our home. In sleeplessness, through loss, in sickness, in the middle of the night, in the early morning when no one else is awake, in the mini van rocking out to worship, on Sunday mornings, as you grow a business, as you share Jesus with others, as you make gluten free breakfasts, as you teach our children throughout the day, as we pray together, with your bible in hand and the praise of Jesus on your lips... our marriage has become a joyous affair not because any of it is perfect but because you pursue God with every part of your life. I’ve watched you fight for this against all odds! Happy 15 years!"

15 years later and look at all these beautiful faces we've been given!
 Thank You, Jesus!!

Saturday, September 30, 2017

Superhero Gang

For Uly's birthday we had the cousins over and they 
dressed up like the cutest superhero gang ever!!!
Family is our favorite and these boys are just too precious!

Love these boys so much!

Wednesday, September 27, 2017

Family Dates!

My kids and my hubby are my heart and soul forever. 
I love them to the moon and back and time with them is my favorite.
Nothing fancy, just them doing regular things.

I love hearing their thoughts, watching their personalities, listening to their giggles and belly laughs, holding their hands, making silly faces with them and soaking them up as much as I can.
We love to take little family dates to get chocolate or go to the park or take a walk in the evening or go to the movies, anything really. Just as long as we're together. 

Their daddy and I are the luckiest in all the land.

Monday, September 25, 2017

Self care

For years I thought that self care was selfish as a mom. But I'm learning more and more how wrong that thinking is. If you feel overwhelmed or frustrated, it's your body and mind showing you that you aren't taking care of yourself. If you want to be a patient, kind, loving, peaceful, joyful mama, you need to give yourself the space to be that kind of woman/mama. You can't give nonstop and expect to keep going without crashing and burning. You can CHOOSE who you want to be. You can CHOOSE to be the mama you want to be. Give yourself grace and take time to feed your soul so that you can pour into your family the way you want to instead of trying to pour into them on an empty tank that's on fire.  Get alone or go out with your bestie. Read a book, take a bath with music and twinkle lights. Spend time with Jesus everyday. You can't give what you don't have. So fill your soul, body, mind, spirit with goodness so that you can pour out goodness to your people. You will also teach your children the importance of taking care of themselves, knowing when to take brakes and the importance of going to Jesus. We make time for what is important to us and I promise you that your kids don't need you every second. You CAN take breaks and it WILL bless your whole family!

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Uly turns SIX!!

Our precious boy, Ulysses David has turned SIX!!!
Our first boy. 
He came out such a fighter. 
Crooked head, bruised over half his face and such a man-child from the get-go. 
Lover of dirt and being loud and listening to stories.
He plays hard and loves even harder.
He tells me everyday, "You are my best mama in the whole world! My beautiful butterfly sweetie! I'm so glad you're my mama." *swoon*

Uly D...
you completely changed our world the day you were born. 
I had no idea how wonderful loving a son could be.  
The Lord has given us such a special bond from the beginning.
It's one that I know has eternal weight and impact.
You've always been the one that has woken up with me, no matter how early it is, to find me during my time with the Lord and I believe that it has been for a greater purpose. The Lord has created you and formed you and called you and is preparing you for incredible things that He has already set apart for you to do. You are a leader, an encourager, a lover, a fighter, a warrior...

Mama: "Who are you?"
Uly: "A man of God"
Mama: "And what does a man of God do?"
Uly: "He shows honor and respect and love."
Never forget who you are, who God says you are.

Happy Birthday, sweet boy!! We love you to the moon!!

Wednesday, September 13, 2017

Comfort in the night...

Story time... Last night my daughter woke me up in tears from a nightmare. She couldn't remember all the details except that she was with me and there was evil near that she was trying to stop. She was afraid and just needed mama to hold her. I prayed over her and asked my husband to pray as well. Then I started to tell her scripture... to think about whatever is true, noble, right, pure, praiseworthy (Phil.4:8)... I told her He who is in her is greater than he who is in the world (1 John 4:4)... That God has not given her a spirit of fear but of power, love and a sound mind (2 Timothy 1:7).... I told her that fear is not hers to carry or to let control her but when she feels fear to take that thought captive (2 Cor. 10:5) and remind herself of truth. I asked her if she wanted any oils before bed, she asked for ones that help with fear so we put them on (Joy+Valor) and then after walking her back to her bed, I tucked her in, hugged her tight, prayed over her again and then she said, "Tell me happy things..." So I reminded her of her sweet cousin Aria playing peek-a-boo and her cousin Blake saying, "don't touch my toes"  and her birthday coming up and her friends she adores and how deeply she is loved. She fell back asleep right away and I was so thankful to be HER mama. To be the one up in the night to calm her these past 8 years of her life. To be her comfort, her prayer warrior, her snuggle-buddy. Such a gift.
One of my favorite parts of motherhood is getting to share the Bible with my children in practical and tangible ways. When they can actively put God's Word into practice it fills my heart to overflowing and confirms in my heart that I'm doing what God has called me to do.
Maybe someone reading this needs that reminder to not let fear hold you back and control your future destiny that the Lord is calling you to. He has not given us a spirit of fear but of power, love and a sound mind!

Monday, September 4, 2017

Maximus turns 4!!!

Our precious boy has tuned F O U R!!!!!

He has been the best little snuggle bug since day one... whenever he wakes up in the morning, he has to snuggle on mama until the grumpies go away.
He dances hard, laughs from his guts and sings with passion.
He loves to takes naps with mom and dad.
He thinks a "Charlie Horse" is really just a mean horse. haha!
He loves Hot Wheels! Like a lot a lot!!

He's always drawing something or cutting something. There are scraps of paper all over our house.
He loves being the baby but also being a big boy.  He said he wants to be four forever.
He gives me big huge hugs all throughout the day and tells me I'm beautiful and that he likes my hair, even when it's a hot mess... He's just a little lover.
He's most often walking around the house in a collared shirt, a tie and batman chonies! 
He also fully believes that the book Where the Wild Things Are was written about him!

Sometimes I can't believe that he's mine... such a gift from Jesus, this boy. He came during a heavy season in our family and brought life and hope and joy and so much love to all our hearts. He is adored by his sisters and brother (most of the time) and is so deeply loved by all of us. 
I'm so thankful to be HIS mama. 
Such a gift.

He's told me everyday for months that he wants a truck that holds 51 cars, so you better believe that he's getting a truck that holds 51 cars!

This morning you walked up to me while I was doing dishes in the kitchen, and with a very sleepy face you lifted up both arms while holding your gee-gees and you wanted me to hold you... you wrapped your whole self around me like you were a baby koala bear and I got to rock you back and forth, breathing you in, soaking up every bit of your four year old self and just thanked Jesus that He blessed our family with you. We adore you, baby! 
Happy Birthday, sweet Maximus!!! 
We'll eat you up , we love you so!!!